Fear

Fear, I don’t know from where to start but, the fear inside me mostly comes true. I do wanna let it out, share, talk about and seek help if needed. It sounds simple, right? Also sounds, ‘I know what to do to overcome’, ain’t it? But, it’s not simple as it sounds.

I always make circles of thoughts and overthink and hence, I never overcome my fear. Sometimes I feel like I don’t want to and sometimes I feel like I am desperate as hell. Why does this happen? Why can’t I just follow my heart and act rationally while I am extremely aware of what’s going on?

Fear it is, I guess I can never defeat!

Acoustic, Mash up and Cover songs

I simply love an acoustic version of songs and covers. And yeah, if there are some narrations in a captivating voice, then it’s like a cherry on the top <3. Haha

Let me share few links of my taste,

[Cr.Megan Davies]

[Cr.Megan Davies]

[Cr. Louisa Wendorff]

People who follow me knows, how much i boast around one of my fav people who cover songs (Nepali, English, and Hindi) beautifully as well as he got his own awesome songs.

Check out his songs on Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/saral-carkey (Do not forget to follow :D)

Also, you can subscribe to his Youtube channel at www.youtube.com/saralmark

Here comes another friend (also one of my fav people 😀 ), who cover songs addictively melodious. He loves to play with the songs and add his touch. He also composes his own songs but never been shared on any online platform. But trust me he’s got talent. Do not have many but few of his covers can be found on Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/casualplays

Please do not forget to follow and encourage him to post more covers and originals.

So enjoy this much for now and I shall share more of song picks of my choice 😉

[Song Pick] Kodaline – Talk

 

[Cr. Kodaline Lyrics]

Kodaline and his songs, how do I put it into words? Listening to his songs makes me nostalgic and slightly relatable as well.

I think when some people takes up a big space and leaves you behind, then you are left alone with empty mind and heart. And hence, the things that had been said and done will always linger around somewhere back of the head. People will definitely move on but it is not easy to forget everything and let go. I know this sounds little silly and crazy, yet are good old memories to cherish on.

[Song Pick] Acoustic Cuts – Show Me Love (Samuel Remix)

[Cr. MrRevillz]

Lyrics:

You got to show me love

Heartbreaks and promises
I’ve had more than my share

I’m tired of giving my love
And getting nowhere, nowhere
What I need is somebody,
who really cares
I really need a lover
a lover, who wants to be there
It’s been so long since
I’ve touched a wanting hand
I can’t put my love on the line
that I hope you, will understand

So baby if you want me,
You’ve got to show me love
Words are so easy to say, but
You’ve got to show me love

I’m tired of getting caught up
In those one night affairs
What I really need is somebody,
who would always be there
Don’t you promise me the world,
And all that I’ve already heard
This time around for me baby,
actions be louder than words

So baby if you want me,
You’ve got to show me love
Words are so easy to say, but
You’ve got to show me love

 

Being Watched

I am on a silent mode again. 

This time, it’s not just from the words not popping out my head but also from being conscious. I am conscious about people around me, being watched and this is keeping me away from expressing my thoughts as well. 

Yesterday, I had this tiny conversation with my friend and he said, the hesitation comes from the moment you start to thinking about “right and wrong” and “the people’s perspective”. That struck me and I realised, damn! my thoughts still revolve around others. I do not much care about “right and wrong” but do care about on what will people think and their perspective.

I always believed in different minds having a different perspective and do intake very well. But, when it comes to your thoughts, in spite of taking in perspective well, I am more concerned about how will the other take in after that. It is absolutely no need to match with mine and I am fine with it (respecting different perspectives). However, I am concerned about what after that? How will they see, take in and respond?

I really need to work on this and overcome this fear, fear of being conscious.

Jesse Ruben – This Is Why I Need You

(Source: IndieAir)

Lyrics:

I have too many questions, and places to go
There are too many options, far too many unknowns
This is why I need you

Everyone talks now, but no one is right
there are too many armies, with no one to fight
This is why I need you

Cause you make the darkness less dark
You make the edges less sharp
You make the winter feel warmer
You make my weakness less weak
You make the bottom less deep
You make the waiting feel shorter
You make my crazy feel normal, every time
You are the who, love is the what, and this is the why

There are too many problems, and no one who cares
There are so many roads, and they all need repairs
This is why I need you

There’s not enough chocolate, there’s too many chores
There are so many mountains, that I haven’t explored
This is why I need you

Cause you make the darkness less dark
You make the edges less sharp
You make the winter feel warmer
You make my weakness less weak
You make the bottom less deep
You make the waiting feel shorter
You make my crazy feel normal, every time
You are the who, love is the what, and this is the why

You keep the ship moving forward
You make it easy to try
You make my crazy feel normal, every time
You are the who, love is the what, and this is the why