Unrequited

I super duper like Korean movies and dramas and most of the time, their storyline is based on unrequited love. And that particular role is always an eye candy. LOL!

So I was thinking, is it a good thing to like or love someone tirelessly and without any expectation. Is it ok to ignore the reality and keep moving on the path of unrequited love?

Well, there are so many questions and of course answers too but one good thing about having an unrequited love for someone is that I get to decide when to end it. My feelings have been out of my control, but I get to decide when to tame my heart. Your heart will always be passionate enough to treat you well and sets you free whenever you want, whenever I want.

Of course, it is a sad thing that you already get to know sooner or later you gotta stop. Stop for good, good for all.

Womanhood​ or Taboo?

Menstruation, 4-7 days of pain. Is it a just a natural cycle every period or a taboo? In Nepal, menstruation means impurity of menstrual blood, girls/ women turns into untouchable or even isolation.

I was surfing youtube and randomly found this video where it talks about the reactions of the people on menstruation. The video is more about how do people think about it? What are their perspectives? Are there any changes among people?

[Vid Source: Channel Arbitrary

After watching this video, I would like to share my own thoughts.

Menstruation is just a cycle of womanhood and not just the body, but the mind needs rest as well. Now talking about the rituals that I have in my house is not different from those uneducated people or villagers. My mom doesn’t allow me to touch my dad or even enter his room, no access to kitchen and prayer’s room and apart from that, there are so many other things that she doesn’t allow or makes me do, or makes me cautious about.

Me, yes, I am an educated girl and yet I am helpless to bring in change. I fail. I am no different from uneducated people. Not that I haven’t tried at all; I always fail in spite of many attempts to bring change or persuade my mom. My mom, she is so blinded by all those stupid religious aspects that she doesn’t want to know or listen, so getting aware is way too far for her. I get frustrated every time when I get my periods because of these stupid norms. I feel really happy to see the change among some of us who has started to giving access and doesn’t discriminate anymore. But I feel sad when I cannot explain my mom and change. I feel really bad for not being able to do anything or rebel. I certainly wish her to understand and bring in change. I definitely want to end this and take menstruation as a natural process of the body towards womanhood.

I feel helpless but I will not stop trying.

Fear

Fear, I don’t know from where to start but, the fear inside me mostly comes true. I do wanna let it out, share, talk about and seek help if needed. It sounds simple, right? Also sounds, ‘I know what to do to overcome’, ain’t it? But, it’s not simple as it sounds.

I always make circles of thoughts and overthink and hence, I never overcome my fear. Sometimes I feel like I don’t want to and sometimes I feel like I am desperate as hell. Why does this happen? Why can’t I just follow my heart and act rationally while I am extremely aware of what’s going on?

Fear it is, I guess I can never defeat!

A Dream For All

(Source: Walter Chang)

Wow, what cool stuffs!

Dream, this is a dream, dream for me and should be for everyone.

After watching this video I think, dreams can be realised and is never too late. I started having this passion for travel was right after my grads. I enjoyed that trip so much that I promised myself to travel to one new destination each year. Since then somehow I have achieved that goal (till 2015). Yay I kinda feel proud.

On the contrary, I was thinking I should pause for a while or even give up, unwillingly. And right then, I found this amazing video. Well, I can definitely pause for a while, save up and plan something big. It’s all about how you wanna carry your passion and live your dream.

Seriously, we all should travel and learn about places, people, food (food is must :P) and just relax. It is not just fun, but learning as well. It is all about expanding your horizon of your knowledge. Connecting people, sharing stories and letting your soul to have its desert.

I should definitely get a map and a plan.